mwahahahahaaaaa

so i weighed myself this morning...

...and you won't believe...

...but i'm 64 kg :)

i really did expect a gain, even more so because i was retaining water (my rings weren't as loose as usual). but no, no gain! that means that i'm right on plan as i lost a kilo last week and i don't have to update my ticker! can you tell i'm relieved?

so today it is healthy eating again. i'm not sure about exercise because
1/i'm still a bit lazy
2/all my scrapbooking bits came in the post so i can make the scrapbook page for mark
3/i'm in the mood for scrapbooking

so yeah. we'll see. might play frisbee when mark comes home or something?

yay no gain! yay 64 kilos! yay!

and you're one with me will you run with me?

have i really not blogged for that long??? really really sorry. won't happen again! (well, maybe when i'm away for two weeks i won't be able to update every day.. but apart from that, never ever ever again) :)

i went to see goo goo dolls last night. they were wonderful, i enjoyed it a lot. they played all my favourite songs and seemed to enjoy it too. the crowd was really excited, everyone was singing along and it was just brilliant.

talking about bands, you must go check angeles drake out because they're one of the best bands ever. you can listen to their album online and i promise you will love it. i'm getting my angeles drake t-shirt as soon as mark gets paid!

and if you've ever wondered what band my husband plays for, they're right here - 52teenagers. download 'please don't turn out the light' that's my favourite song (it's on the one for the restless) :)

anyway, back to business. i've been eating shit and not exercising properly for a week. i'm not quite sure why, perhaps because i'm at the end of the blister with the pill and my body is expecting a period. i know i've said before that a tiny little pill is not going to dictate me what and how much i eat but i think that's precisely what's been happening. so there will be a gain tomorrow, without a doubt. today will be my last day of indulgence and i'm back on track tomorrow. it's the start of a "new week" and i know if i don't get my act together for tomorrow, i will continue eating badly for another week. i don't want that to happen and i won't let it happen.

oh, and the title of today's post? it's from a goo goo dolls song and no, i don't think it has anything to do with exercise. but it fits well in here, doesn't it? ;)

saturday

i went to bed at about 3 am last night because i was waiting for mark to come home from the band practice. i'm totally dead today. we went shopping to tesco, i got some ribbon from hobbycraft, mark spent his birthday money on some flanger pedal and most importantly we bought some rechargable batteries for the camera. we've not been using the camera for ages as mark's got 2.0 megapixel camera on his phone. but i want to take proper pictures now so i can use them for scrapbooking :)

i can't be bothered going to the gym today. i find it increasingly difficult to go every day. i will go tomorrow for sure!

and, here's a picture of me today wearing my new chinese top. i bought it on ebay a while ago and it came yesterday. i look like i have a massive head.

new hair

i had a sudden impulse to get my hair done last night. i got home at 9.45 pm, checked my hair in the mirror to see if it's long enough to be cut the way i want it - it was - so i called regis. now, i used to go there ages ago and jonathan used to cut my hair. he was absolutely fabulous. but jonathan moved somewhere nice and hot and i was left without a hairdresser. i tried a few hairdressers since then - for some reason they were all women - and it was never great, some even disastrous. so last night, i asked them to give me an appointment with someone with similar style to jonathan's. and there was someoneone - chris!

and he was lovely! very nice guy and a fabulous hairdresser! thank god for that! i don't have to search anymore! i'll stop with the exclamation marks now. so this is what he created:


ha! mark thinks he can hide!



a bit unhinged here


on the weight loss front, i didn't go to the gym yesterday because i wanted to go to hobbycraft to buy stuff for scrapbooking (my exciting new - and expensive - hobby) but i did taebo today. i'm not eating as well as i could. i'll get back to it tomorrow!

a kilo!

it's wednesday and that means weigh in day! and it's a loss this week. a good one too. one kilo! one kilo! and i'll say it again - one kilo! oh it's been so long since i've lost a kilo in a week. i was doing my happy dance this morning. it was just really nice to see 64 on the scales. it means i only need to lose another 9 kilos. yay!
i don't quite understand how that happened though. i had a pizza on friday and i missed exercise on monday. so how does it work? i would like to say 'i don't care, i've lost a kilo wahey!' but i actually care because i would love to lose a kilo a week on a regular basis. perhaps it is the shape up for summer thing? or maybe it's the pizza ;) i shall test that theory out very soon since we're going for a pizza tonight. i'm considering having garlic mushrooms with side salad instead of a pizza but i will decide in the restaurant. if i want a pizza, i'll have a pizza. if not, i'll have something else.

talking about 'shape up for summer', it's week 2 of the programme. i picked up the sheet with this week's exercises in the gym yesterday and good god, if i thought it would get easier as it progresses i was mistaken! but oh well, exercise is supposed to be hard.

i've recently realised that i'm making 'salt choices'. i always check the amount of fat and calories when i buy something. but now i'm checking salt as well. if you read me regularly, you know i always retain a lot of water after chinese. because i weigh myself on a weekly basis, i obviously don't want to retain water at all because it might not be gone by the time i have to weigh myself. so i've stopped eating salty foods. i don't want light crisps. i didn't want a single slice of mark's pizza hut pizza last night (well i did but i didn't). i don't want popcorn. i don't want anything that would make me retain water. it's funny because sometimes i go 'oh i can have a treat' but then think 'i better have a different treat if i don't want to weigh a kilo more tomorrow'. it definitely helps with losing, i think so anyway.

a kilo gone a kilo gone a kilo gone


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well i've just updated my ticker and i've noticed - 2/3 of the weight gone! that is so brilliant!

i also forgot to say that a few days ago i ordered winter boots (bear with me). they're vegan and they're made by earth. i already have two pairs of shoes made by them - casual and trainers and i love both of them. however the casual pair has had it, it's falling apart a bit, so i'm trying to find a new pair. and while browsing, i found this shop that sold the boots which i wanted to buy in winter but didn't cause they were £120. they now sold them for £50 + vat. how amazing! so i ordered them and they came this morning and they're like the nicest softest comfy boots ever!

a good day today! ;)

exercising again

after yesterday's use of 'no exercise pass' it was back to the gym this morning. i so didn't want to get up. i almost didn't. my throat was a bit sore so i was making plans in my head like 'i won't go and i'll tell mark my throat really hurt this morning.' naughty, i know. but what's important is that i got up eventually and got my arse to the gym. i managed to do everything i was supposed to do during the sculpt class so i'm like super happy. no inner thigh this week but lots of abs. abs are good for me though because you need strong abs for the recovery period after breast augmentation.

i'm a bit annoyed with myself now because i've just eaten two sandwiches for lunch. i should really have had just one. or stop eating half way through the second one. but nooo, i ate both and now i feel completely stuffed. if there's no loss tomorrow you know why.

on a more positive note, the weather in manchesterland has improved. no rain and even a bit of sun! not hot - apparently 12 degrees when i was walking from the gym.

i will lose weight i will lose weight i will lose weight.
i will i will i will.

happy birthday

it's mark's birthday today so happy birthday happy birthday happy birthday :) i managed to lose one of the presents i bought for him which he knew about so argh!

i went to aqua aerobics yesterday since i missed it on friday. it was really good. we were doing different stuff all the time so it wasn't boring at all and went really quickly. the instructor knew i was there for the first time straight away and she kept coming and checking whether i was doing the exercises right. i thought that was really nice. i also swam 30 lengths before the class started and that was challenging! not because it was hard exercise but because of the amount of fucking stupid people with their kids standing in the middle of the pool. i go to jjb health club. health club! the pool is there for swimming! yet you can't swim there at 11 o'clock on a sunday without being obstructed. it was dead annoying.

i'm excused from going to the gym today because:
1/i slept through my alarm this morning
2/it was pissing it down
3/it's mark's birthday and i want to spend time with him
4/i can't play frisbee because it's still pissing it down

there!

but, we're not going for the birthday meal today because the pizza place mark chose doesn't really do any salads (apart from a rocket one) so i'd have to have a pizza and weigh in day is in two days only so i have to eat really well until then. we'll go on wednesday and i can really enjoy it then, have a bit of garlic bread and a nice pizza and maybe dessert :) we'll see!

not so good

i almost didn't go to the gym. i really couldn't be bothered. but mark bribed me with 'we can go and have a look at charms when you come home from the gym.'
i did the 'shape up for summer' week 1 programme 2. it was quite hard, lots of legwork and some arms. and treadmill after the lifting. 30 minutes to be precise. 1 min fast 2 min slow. i interpreted this as 1 min jog 2 min walk ;) there's no way i'd be able to run slow and fast for 30 minutes. i actually wanted to get off the treadmill after ten minutes, you see, at that point i'd been working out for over an hour and it seemed like a long time to me. so i had to give myself a little talk and convince myself that i can do it and that i'm already in the gym so i might as well complete the programme. and i did so i guess i'm quite good at self talk.

afterwards, we went to selfridges. they didn't have any charms that i liked, i wanted an elephant and a cowbell. so i thought maybe they could order them for me and that it would be wise to order two instead of ordering one now and another one a month later but mark wouldn't let me making me feel like i spend too much money on myself and it ended up in a big argument. the result is that i'm going to return the bracelet - i don't need to be reminded of the bust up every time i look at it - and we're going to have separate finances so i can buy whatever i want without being accused of being a golddigger.

so, not a good day. but hey, it can only get better!

a busy day

i woke up early to go to my aqua aerobics, but my friend nicola called to see if i'm free for lunch in town. so it was out of the window with aqua and in with lunch. we went to this italian place where the english waiters made an effort to use italian phrases which was a bit weird. i confess, i had a pizza. there was nothing good on the menu that would be vegetarian so i thought i might as well have a pizza. it was thin with not much cheese on and i had onions, mushrooms and olives topping. i only ate 3/4 of it as well. we had garlic bread for starters but i only had one slice. i've not had a pizza for about 4 months now and it wasn't like i could have avoided it. it was a nice meal and i enjoyed it.
we went shopping afterwards, to affleck's palace (i wanted to get a belt and some chains) and a science fiction shop (nicola wanted 'lucifer' comic). we didn't get anything in affleck's in the end, but nicola managed to get two issues of her comic. we went to some clothes shops afterwards and i got a belt that i wanted and a white shirt that i need for after the surgery.

when i got home i had some melon and was throwing frisbee around with mark for half an hour in the garden. it was fun! and i could clock the exercise for the day. i definitely want to do it more often. it's great for the days when i can't go to the gym for some reason or can't be bothered. i also want to play with other toys sometime. like, soft tennis or those stick pads with a sticky ball or something.

i went to the trafford centre in the evening to buy presents for mark as it will be his birthday on monday. i bought a few little things, i hope he'll like :)
i also bought a little something for myself. when we were in the trafford centre the other day, i saw a charm bracelet and many many charms that you just clip on in selfridges. i considered getting it and getting a charm for every 5 kg lost. and tonight i went to look at it again and i really liked it. i like the idea, you can get charms that reflect your personality and make the bracelet really personal. so, i went ahead and bought it. even though i'm entitled to three charms, i've decided i'd get one charm every month. that way it won't be too expensive and i'll get excited a few more times. so i bought a number '2' charm. that's because i got married in february. now every time i'll look at the bracelet, i'll think of my wedding to the most amazing guy ever :D

so the scales will be up tomorrow but i'll still have 4 days to lose some. tomorrow it's back in the gym for the 'shape up for summer' week 1 programme 2. hopefully this one won't be as hard.

a loss

i did it! i lost! phew once more! i took measurements today as well as it's been four weeks since the last time. here's how i got on:

weight: 65 kg so half a kilo lost since last week

measurements (the difference from four weeks ago is in the brackets):

calf: 40 cm (-1cm) - i know i didn't blog this last time, i forgot, sorry!
thigh: 59 cm (-2cm)
bum: 101 cm (-2cm)
waist: 74 cm (-1cm)
belly button: 84 cm (-2cm)
ribcage: 75 cm (-1.5cm)

last time i took measurements i weighed 67 kg. so it's a 2 kg loss and 9.5 cm loss. that is quite a lot actually. i was gonna say that the fat is goddamn stubborn and it's going really slow but looking at it like that, it's quite good. after all, i still need to lose ten kilos so i better have some cm's to lose too!

i've been to a polish bakery today. lovely shop. they had these huge caramel slices. do you know them? shortbread, caramel and chocolate on top. i love them. i don't eat them, obviously, cause they're so bad for you but god did they look tasty!
i bought some bagels, i'm hoping they'll be polish bagels not english/american bagels. i will have one with the lovely tomato and basil soup i bought in nero cafe yesterday.

so it's the start of a new week. hard work never stops, does it?

:D

it was sculpt class this morning as usual. and a hard one. horrible squats, hard abs, arms and inner thighs. i managed to do it all. no stopping and starting. no slowing down. i did all the repetitions. when i was supposed to go fast, i did. when i was supposed to go slow, i did. afterwards, i was like :D (hence the title of this post). yay!

that was the good news for today.

the bad news is that i was stupid enough to have chinese last night. i told myself there is not that much salt in fried rice and it will be ok. big mistake. the scales are half a kilo up from yesterday. fuck. that's the half a kilo i'm supposed to lose this week. weigh in is tomorrow. bah! why am i so stupid???
another thought crossed my mind as i saw the number on the scales today. 'maybe it's not the chinese, maybe it's muscle that appeared after yesterday's resistance training!' you can laugh now. i guess to build 0.5 kg of muscle overnight i'd have to have some damn good bodybuiler's genes. ha ha. righ.
i'm drinking water. i'm hoping i'll poo today. i've not pooed since wednesday.

wish me luck for tomorrow.

shape up for summer

the four week long 'shape up for summer' programme started at my gym today. they have a board with pictures of all the exercises so you don't have to feel stupid. i had my fat measured - 28.1% apparently - that's actually not that bad. although i think the recommended percentage is 21 - 25. or something like that anyway. so if i manage to get 3.1% down, i'll be in the healthy range. that would mean i'd have to lose 2.015 kg of fat in four weeks. doable? well, even if i don't lose that much in four weeks, i can continue losing the fat after my boob job and get it right down.

now, the exercises. the workout number one for this week started with wide grip pull ups. jesus. i don't think i've done this in my entire life. they actually have a machine that assists you in doing these, i'm just going to say that it had to assist me a lot. then there were relatively normal exercises like chest press and lateral pulldown. and then... there was shoulder press. honestly, i can't do that. i started with 20 kg. i did two reps. i gradually went down to 5 kg (the machine wouldn't let me go any lower) and i could do about seven reps. after all these arm and shoulder things, my arms were shaking. seriously.
then there was a bit of cardio - rowing. 8 reps - 1 min fast 2 min slow. i liked that. it kinda tricks you into believing you only work out 1/3 of the time.

i hope i'll be able to lift a piece of paper tomorrow.

i paid for my boob job today. yay! well, yay as in it's getting really close. not as in im so happy i've spent so much money.

never again

i woke up with really (and i mean really) stiff calf muscles. i normally do gym on saturdays but i really couldn't imagine myself running with those legs. so i decided to do taebo instead. i have a dvd and it's good to break the routine. keeps your body guessing, right?
the taebo dvd i have has a 30 min routine and i remembered it being quite challenging. i remember times when i was thin and reasonably fit and had to stop a few times to catch my breath and drink water throughout the workout. i was once wearing a heart rate monitor while doing it and it showed heart rate of 207 at one point (when i told my dad he told me i was sick). i was a bit apprehensive, thinking 'just how many times will i have to stop?'
well...
... i managed to do it without a single stop. i wasn't even feeling faint at any point. i kept thinking 'oh, this is the tough bit, i remember this, i was never able to do all the reps in this section' and then cruised through without any problem. yay! i'm getting fit!

however, after the initial joy of being fit enough to do 30 minutes of taebo came bad stomach. i had (reduced fat) hoummus with mini rolls and peppers about two hours before i did my dvd. i had a few moments during the workout when i felt a bit dodgy, having hoummus and peppers burps. but when i got in the shower, jesus, i thought i'd pass out! i'm never ever eating hoummus again. ever. and i will eat peppers only when i really have to. i know it's a vegetable and there are many good things in it, but it really doesn't agree with my stomach. so, hoummus never again, peppers only when i have to.

oh and i had my second treat of the week today! dave's supersoft ice cream as planned! without the flake though because i don't really like flakes and mark loves them. it was lovely!

success!

today mark suggested going to tkmaxx to look at jeans. i found two pairs that i liked. well, three actually, but the tommy hilfiger's had a leather label on them. so, two pairs - one by mavi, one by i don't know who cause i didn't really check. they both fitted but my hips looked really wide in the don't know who jeans. the mavi ones were nice. a bit tight, but i wanted them tight because once i start wearing them they'll loosen up a bit and as i'll lose more weight (which i will do!) they'll losen up a bit more. by my calculations based on the fcuk jeans i bought when i was 70 kg, i should be able to wear the mavi's until i'm about 60 kg. that's not bad.
thankfully i don't have a muffin top, although my stomach sticks out a bit at the front. so i guess i have a stomach top. but they're nice, really.
the only thing is, they're size 31/32. i have another pair of mavi's at home, not jeans but stretchy trousers which i bought about two and a half years ago. they're size 27/32. i know. i could cry...
for the time being though, it's nice to have a pair of jeans without holes on the fattest part of your legs.

it's friday. my naughty day. not on purpose naughty. 'it just happened' naughty. i blogged before that for some reason friday's aqua aerobics classes make me more hungry than normal. and mark's gone to the band practice. so normally, i am hungry, alone and bored on a friday. but not today. i'll follow the devised plan. i've actually followed some of it already. i ate sufficient amount of food. and i'm planning some activities for tonight - i want to cut and file my nails cause their length is getting ridiculous, apply face mask and do some pottery. in that order. i will keep my eating in control. after all, i'm allowed two treats this week and i had one on monday and i really want dave's supersoft ice cream (it's the lovely soft ice cream from an ice cream van) - i hoped he would come round today but there's no sign of him so far so i guess i'll just have to wait until tomorrow.

yes yes, i can get through today without eating shit and without bingeing and i will. i need to think about my new jeans! if i put on weight i won't fit into them!

clothes shopping

for some reason, my jeans (the only pair i've got) have holes in them. if they were on my knees, i wouldn't mind. however, they're on the inner thighs. jesus christ. i don't get it. i bought them when i was 70 kg. i'm 65 now. there were no holes up until like two weeks ago. what the hell happened?

so i went clothes shopping a few days ago. first i thought i'd get combats because i've always fancied combats. it became very clear very soon why i never had a pair. my thighs at the top are really big (they always are, even when i'm 50 kg) and so the combats have to be bigger size with wider leg and because they're wide from top to bottom, i look like i have massive legs. well, i do have massive legs, but they look even more massive in combats. i tried on some skirts (we're having warm weather) and some blouses. i looked horrendous in all of them.
with combats out of the window i had no choice but to look for jeans. i didn't want to buy expensive ones because i'm hoping i won't wear them for long. i tried on some oasis ones - size 12 was too small, like so small that i couldn't get it on, size 14 was loose. obviously, i need a 13. levi's started putting leather on their jeans. that is such a shame because it's so unnecessary and they were my favourite jeans and now i can't wear them anymore. i'm not sure what jeans i'm going to wear.
all in all, i didn't buy a thing. maybe when i lose some more weight. for the moment, i'm saved because it's warm enough to wear skirts so i can wear the only skirt i've got that fits me (marks and spencer size 12).
it's still disheartening not to be able to buy a single piece of clothing in the whole trafford centre.

argh!

phew

i managed to pull a loss this week! half a kilo to be precise. i'm not sure i deserved it because i had a treat every day and i ate a lot of food on sunday. but i ate really well on monday and tuesday (although i had a little treat on monday). so i guess this week's objective will be to eat how i ate these past two days and deserve the loss!

happy happy happy

position

sculpt class for me today. i managed to do almost all of it and that was a nice change. we were doing inner thighs, arms and abs today. inner thighs! that's my death! but it wasn't today. at first, i had to stop after a little while but then the instructor suggested different positions of the other leg and it made it so much easier! the inner thigh still hurt and the leg was still shaking, but i was able to hold the foot in the correct 'heel up, toes down' way with ease. and didn't have to stop after that! so, if she suggested the different position before we started doing the exercise, i wouldn't have stopped at all and that is fantastic! we'll see what happens next week though ;)

i noticed that there's this woman in the gym who exercises in her swimming costume. she has shorts on too. isn't it disgusting? she sweats in the gym, in her swimming costume, and then she goes in the pool, in the same swimming costume. ok, so she showers before she enters the pool, but that hardly washes out all the sweat from the swimwear. ewww.

the gym's doing this 'shape up for summer' programme. it lasts for four weeks and it targets body fat. so it's not actually for weight loss, but for body fat % loss. i'm thinking about it. they did it last year too and the winner lost 3.6% body fat. that is a lot in four weeks! it starts next monday. i think i might give it a go.

a mile and a quarter

i'm not sure who i was looking at in the mirrors that day when i blogged that i don't look fat. because i looked today and i look horribly fat. i was probably having a thin day or something. i guess the only thing i can do is eat like a bird and exercise like a madwoman.

i ran for 15 minutes in the gym today. fifteen! 1.25 miles :D how good is that? when i say run, i really mean jog. i choose to use 'run' because it sounds oh so athletic. ha ha. sad really.
i'm thinking about participating in the sport relief mile thingy. it's for a good thing, it's only a fiver, you don't have to fundraise and you get a red sock! the only problem is that it's on the 15th of july. i'm allowed to start exercising on the 19th of july. i know it's only four days but when you take into consideration that the recovery takes five weeks, four days isn't really a short amount of time. i would love to run it. i know i'm able to run it (1.25 m!!!!). but i'll probably walk it. i can run it next year, right?

do you think i'll be able to run (=jog) for 20 minutes before my boob job (=14th of june)?

pedicure

so i went for my pedicure yesterday. it wasn't what i hoped it to be. it was very rushed and it wasn't relaxing at all. it wasn't special and i could do it at home with exactly the same result. bah! i know for the next time. thankfully, it only cost me only £20 even though i booked the £36 one. apparently i didn't need the extra things that were included in the more expensive one, like removing hard skin because i didn't have any. so, 20 quid of my reward money gone and i don't even feel indulged. bollocks!

i really couldn't be bothered going to the gym yesterday, i was tired and didn't feel very athletic. but i went and i did 30 minutes on the treadmill alternating 2.5 min walk and 2.5 min run. so all in all, i ran for 15 minutes. i know it's not 15 minutes without stopping, but it's still impressive considering i found it really hard to do 4 min walk 1 min run not so long ago. i had to talk to myself constantly, encouraging and saying 'you ran for 10 minutes solid on monday so you sure can run for two and half minutes now!' i forgot to take my wristband again so i had sweat in my eyes. have. to. remember. my. wristbands. next. time.

mark managed to get home in time to take me to my aqua aerobics class today so i had no choice but to go ;) it was very good, it was a different lady doing it this time and she was good. it was a combination of toning and cardio and we were doing something new all the time so i was never bored.

it's the last day of the 'no chocolate or ice cream' week so i'm looking forward to eating chocolate and ice cream again. however, there's a catch - i can have two treats only next week. why do i choose to punish myself so? ;)

not so good

i just came home from a swimming session. i did 50 lengths, that's 1 km. i couldn't go to my aqua aerobics class this morning because i was seeing my shrink so i decided to swim today instead and go to aqua aerobics on sunday. i'm hoping the sunday class will be possible, but i'm not sure yet as mark has a photo shoot and he might finish after my class has started. so we'll see.

i've been really good with exercise and walking 10 000 steps a day in may so far. not so good with food. i eat well most of the time, but i've started this annoying trend - having a treat every day. what's that about? on wednesday i had fun size bag of skittles, yesterday i had popcorn and today i had yogurt coated raisins. i mean, it's ok to have a treat every so often, but every fucking day??? i don't think so. i'll have to do something about it. perhaps writing a mini goal down, something like 'have only two treats in the week beginning 8/5/06'. yes yes, that's what i do.

the weather's been really nice for two days in a row now, warm enough to wear summer shoes and flip flops so i decided to book myself for a pristine pedicure at urban retreat in harvey nichols. i'm looking forward to it. i've not had a pedicure for a year and a half or so and i'm spending my reward money, so it better be good ;)

weigh in

a week's gone by and i weighed myself again today. 66.0 kg. half a kilo down. i hoped it would be a kilo but half a kilo is still a loss and that's a good thing. the plan is to lose half a kilo a week anyway but you know i'd love it to go quicker than that. well, it looks like i've got to be patient.
i would really love to be 63 kg when we go to slovakia because that would mean i'd weigh less than my mother. i'm going in 5 1/2 weeks so i think it's doable. of course i'll be a kilo up when i come back because of the implants. i really hope it won't be more than a kilo. i eat a lot when i'm in slovakia. it's a mental thing - i think, 'i'm on holiday' and 'there's food they don't have in england' and that somehow gives me a free pass to pig out. i'll have to come up with a plan before i go.

i've decided i'm not going to eat chinese until my surgery. the amount of salt and fat in their dishes is alarming and i think i can do without. if i want fried rice, i can make fried rice myself. granted, it won't be as good but oh well. i wrote this little goal down and i will do my best to stick to it.

it's only the third day of the 'no chocolate or ice cream' week and i'm craving chocolate and ice cream like mad. it doesn't help that i'm before period and it doesn't help that every time i enter my bedroom i see an open chocolate bar (which i bought for mark) and a pack of yogurt coated raisins (which i again bought for mark). however, i'm trying to be good.

the dancing class today was good. the good news is that now i get the bit i wasn't getting before. the bad news is that i keep starting with the wrong foot in the moves we learnt today. aaaargh! i'll get there in the end.

i better update my ticker now ;)

cold and miserable

the weather is horrible at the moment. we had a spell of few really nice and warm days and i hoped the weather would stay nice and would even get better. that hasn't happened. yesterday, we had hail stones and rain. today it's cold and windy and it looks like it's going to rain any minute. the house is freezing, i've just put the heating on. grrrrr, it's may for god's sake!

so hard to get up this morning. i got a bit spoiled over past few days with mark giving me lifts to and from the gym. today i had to take a bus. and walk up to the gym in this freezing weather. poor me ;)
the sculpt class was good but i had to stop all the time and it's kinda discouraging when you can only do half a class. well, maybe 3/4, but still.

weigh in day tomorrow. i hope i'll do really well cause i've had a good week. i had that chocolate binge day on friday but last week i had three so it's a small improvement. fingers crossed for me!

ten minutes

i've been rather tired these few past days. not sure why, i'm doing exactly the same things as before, i've not changed anything. perhaps it's because i went to bed at half one on friday night and i'm still catching up on that? the result is, i sleep a lot more and i'm much more lazy. i have to talk myself into going to the gym and i put it off for as long as i can. i don't like this very much but i guess the important thing is that i'm still going.

today, i planned to go to the gym at half one, i went at half four instead. i didn't have much food in me because we decided to make veggie chilli con carne for lunch (a rather late lunch) as i've never had it before and i didn't like it at all. the spices in it just didn't sit well with me. so i only ate a forkful and went to the gym on an empty stomach.
i wanted to do 30 minutes on the treadmill doing 2.5 min walk/2.5 min run. i started running after 2.5 min and was gasping for air after thirty seconds. it just wasn't happening. so i decided to walk for half an hour instead. it was so boring! i considered ringing mark and asking him to pick me up. after twenty minutes of walking i decided to run again and kept running and running and running. i ran for 10 minutes solid! ten minutes! i know that when i did 3 min walk/2 min run for half an hour i actually ran for 12 minutes but it didn't really require the same effort. soooo, i can tick off two goals from the 'other' list - jog for 5 minutes and jog for 10 minutes. so exciting!
afterwards, i did 15 mins on crosstrainer and 15 mins on recumbent bike. i started doing sit ups but remembered i have toning class tomorrow and we're likely to do loads of sit ups then.

i'm glad that what looked like a shitty workout turned out to be a really good one.