not so good

i almost didn't go to the gym. i really couldn't be bothered. but mark bribed me with 'we can go and have a look at charms when you come home from the gym.'
i did the 'shape up for summer' week 1 programme 2. it was quite hard, lots of legwork and some arms. and treadmill after the lifting. 30 minutes to be precise. 1 min fast 2 min slow. i interpreted this as 1 min jog 2 min walk ;) there's no way i'd be able to run slow and fast for 30 minutes. i actually wanted to get off the treadmill after ten minutes, you see, at that point i'd been working out for over an hour and it seemed like a long time to me. so i had to give myself a little talk and convince myself that i can do it and that i'm already in the gym so i might as well complete the programme. and i did so i guess i'm quite good at self talk.

afterwards, we went to selfridges. they didn't have any charms that i liked, i wanted an elephant and a cowbell. so i thought maybe they could order them for me and that it would be wise to order two instead of ordering one now and another one a month later but mark wouldn't let me making me feel like i spend too much money on myself and it ended up in a big argument. the result is that i'm going to return the bracelet - i don't need to be reminded of the bust up every time i look at it - and we're going to have separate finances so i can buy whatever i want without being accused of being a golddigger.

so, not a good day. but hey, it can only get better!