clothes shopping

for some reason, my jeans (the only pair i've got) have holes in them. if they were on my knees, i wouldn't mind. however, they're on the inner thighs. jesus christ. i don't get it. i bought them when i was 70 kg. i'm 65 now. there were no holes up until like two weeks ago. what the hell happened?

so i went clothes shopping a few days ago. first i thought i'd get combats because i've always fancied combats. it became very clear very soon why i never had a pair. my thighs at the top are really big (they always are, even when i'm 50 kg) and so the combats have to be bigger size with wider leg and because they're wide from top to bottom, i look like i have massive legs. well, i do have massive legs, but they look even more massive in combats. i tried on some skirts (we're having warm weather) and some blouses. i looked horrendous in all of them.
with combats out of the window i had no choice but to look for jeans. i didn't want to buy expensive ones because i'm hoping i won't wear them for long. i tried on some oasis ones - size 12 was too small, like so small that i couldn't get it on, size 14 was loose. obviously, i need a 13. levi's started putting leather on their jeans. that is such a shame because it's so unnecessary and they were my favourite jeans and now i can't wear them anymore. i'm not sure what jeans i'm going to wear.
all in all, i didn't buy a thing. maybe when i lose some more weight. for the moment, i'm saved because it's warm enough to wear skirts so i can wear the only skirt i've got that fits me (marks and spencer size 12).
it's still disheartening not to be able to buy a single piece of clothing in the whole trafford centre.

argh!