three days to go...

...and i can weight myself! i really really want to weigh myself but i'm not going to. it's terrible, i know, why am i so obsessed with weighing myself? it's ridiculous. i have this little talk with myself in my head, it goes like this:

'maybe i could weigh myself just once?'
-'no you can't!'
'just one little weigh in'
-'no!'
'no one would know!'
-'no!'
'i'd pretend it never happened...'
-'no!'

so far, the 'no!' part of my brain is winning. i'm just hoping i'll have a loss on monday and will be pleasantly surprised. then i can tell myself it was worth it.