getting fit?
i'm going to have colonic irrigation tomorrow. i'm a bit scared, but i've done my research and it's not gonna hurt and you're covered up and everything. also, the lady who's going to do it is in the guild so she's properly trained. which i'm glad about. anyway, apparently people carry 7-25 pounds of shit (not literally) in the colon. i bet i carry at least 10. not pooing properly for pretty much all my life and eating shit most of my life must have done something. it's nice to know i'm going to get rid of some of it tomorrow. i'm wondering how many treatments i'll need. i'm scared i'll find out that i'm really polluted. but even if i do, at least i know i can do something about it. although it will cost me.
when i started this blog, its main purpose was to monitor my progress as i increase my fitness levels. the goal was to be able to run 10k in may. it's almost end of january now and i've not even started running yet. i need to get my arse back to the gym. yes, i want to lose weight. yes, i want to be thin again. but i really want to be fit. i can't run upstairs without gasping for air for the next ten minutes. what's that about? it's more important to be healthy than to be thin. i'll start going three times a week. that's good for a start. i think. i'll see how it goes and adjust accordingly.
i had some chocolate today. and not even the 70% cocoa stuff. i'm not going to beat myself up. i can eat chocolate. i can eat anything i want. if i eat healthy most of the time and crave chocolate, why shouldn't i have it? if i want these changes to be permanent, i can't restrict myself too much or one day i'll say fuck it and stop doing it. i also crave apple pastry and would really love some. we're going to tesco tomorrow. if i still crave it, i'll get some. i will think hard though - will i want to pollute my freshly cleaned colon with shit?
i also made a lovely bean soup today. it took two bloody hours for the beans to cook but it was well worth it. mark is still eating healthy which makes me proud. i'm trying to think of things he could eat as i don't want him to eat the same stuff every day. i think i'm doing well so far. and i really enjoy to cook for him. i can do it now, i'm at home all day and i don't find it difficult at the moment.
good news from yvonne today, dr. thomas is supportive of me getting a free bus pass so wahey! i just need to get a copy of my prescription on wednesday and yvonne can send it off. and hopefully i'll get a bus pass soon. i don't know what i'll do with it, but it's always good to be mobile.
yesterday, i got an email from maxim's friend, a plastic surgeon. i've decided i definitely want to have the boobs done, especially after i saw myself (repeatedly) in the gym's mirror when i had a sports bra on. also, i think my boobs are shrinking. i emailed him asking how much time does it require and that i'll probably come in the summer. that would be ideal cause they wouldn't need me in school during summer, i could get fitter (cause i won't be able to do any exercise for 6 weeks after the surgery) and lose some weight by then. and save money. so i think i'll start putting the school paychecks into my isa and save up that way. i'll have to check with mark first. it's exciting but scary at the same time.
when i started this blog, its main purpose was to monitor my progress as i increase my fitness levels. the goal was to be able to run 10k in may. it's almost end of january now and i've not even started running yet. i need to get my arse back to the gym. yes, i want to lose weight. yes, i want to be thin again. but i really want to be fit. i can't run upstairs without gasping for air for the next ten minutes. what's that about? it's more important to be healthy than to be thin. i'll start going three times a week. that's good for a start. i think. i'll see how it goes and adjust accordingly.
i had some chocolate today. and not even the 70% cocoa stuff. i'm not going to beat myself up. i can eat chocolate. i can eat anything i want. if i eat healthy most of the time and crave chocolate, why shouldn't i have it? if i want these changes to be permanent, i can't restrict myself too much or one day i'll say fuck it and stop doing it. i also crave apple pastry and would really love some. we're going to tesco tomorrow. if i still crave it, i'll get some. i will think hard though - will i want to pollute my freshly cleaned colon with shit?
i also made a lovely bean soup today. it took two bloody hours for the beans to cook but it was well worth it. mark is still eating healthy which makes me proud. i'm trying to think of things he could eat as i don't want him to eat the same stuff every day. i think i'm doing well so far. and i really enjoy to cook for him. i can do it now, i'm at home all day and i don't find it difficult at the moment.
good news from yvonne today, dr. thomas is supportive of me getting a free bus pass so wahey! i just need to get a copy of my prescription on wednesday and yvonne can send it off. and hopefully i'll get a bus pass soon. i don't know what i'll do with it, but it's always good to be mobile.
yesterday, i got an email from maxim's friend, a plastic surgeon. i've decided i definitely want to have the boobs done, especially after i saw myself (repeatedly) in the gym's mirror when i had a sports bra on. also, i think my boobs are shrinking. i emailed him asking how much time does it require and that i'll probably come in the summer. that would be ideal cause they wouldn't need me in school during summer, i could get fitter (cause i won't be able to do any exercise for 6 weeks after the surgery) and lose some weight by then. and save money. so i think i'll start putting the school paychecks into my isa and save up that way. i'll have to check with mark first. it's exciting but scary at the same time.
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