not fat?
i was cooking soup last night and i noticed something when i saw my reflection in the kitchen window. then i saw the same thing in the gym mirrors today. i don't look fat. yes, my stomach is sticking out a bit, my arse is big and my calf muscles are massive. but i don't look fat. i look... normal. yes. i look normal. i look really in proportion as well (not when i'm wearing a sports bra cause then i have no boobs but that will be fixed in 46 days). that's weird. only two days ago i had this image of myself in my head in which i was horribly fat. the thing is, i'm now 3 kg down from my highest normal weight (according to bmi). so it really must be that i'm not fat anymore. obviously, that applies to 'in clothes' only, when i'm naked it's a whole different story. it feels very strange but kinda good too.
i fucked up a bit with food yesterday. i was very hungry (more about that later) and i tried to eat fruit and veg but it didn't help. i had a row of chocolate and thought to myself that the one row would be all i'd have. but i had more. and more. and then some. i didn't eat the whole bar but it was completely unnecessary to eat as much as i did. all i can do now is to learn from it and not do it again.
there is a pattern emerging - i fuck up on fridays. i think there are two reasons.
1/i'm hungry. i swim for 20-30 minutes and do aqua aerobics. that burns more calories than the exercise i do on other days. so i need to eat more. yesterday i had only three crumpets for lunch. i was bound to be hungry. so, from now on - bigger lunch on fridays.
2/boredom. mark does his band stuff on fridays. i need to plan more activities for friday nights.
there! sorted!
it was a gym day today. so i went and discovered that we have a few new treadmills! how exciting! they have touch sensor buttons and i'm dead happy about that because the old ones have buttons you have to press really hard and they really hurt your fingers.
i've blogged earlier that i wear earth energetic trainers to the gym and that they have negative heel technology which causes that you walk on 7.5% incline all the time. and i also whinged that this is most likely the reason why i get so knackered on the treadmill. so today, i decided to wear different trainers. and yes, it was totally the shoes! running was much easier today. i did 3 min walk 2 min run for 30 minutes but i think i could have done 2.5 min walk 2.5 min run. so i'm going to do that on monday. it felt a bit strange at first to run without an incline, it actually felt as if i was running downhill! (which i wasn't) i know i will be burning less calories this way but i think there's a less chance of straining muscles and bigger chance of achieving my tiny little running goals (the first one is to jog for 5 minutes).
i fucked up a bit with food yesterday. i was very hungry (more about that later) and i tried to eat fruit and veg but it didn't help. i had a row of chocolate and thought to myself that the one row would be all i'd have. but i had more. and more. and then some. i didn't eat the whole bar but it was completely unnecessary to eat as much as i did. all i can do now is to learn from it and not do it again.
there is a pattern emerging - i fuck up on fridays. i think there are two reasons.
1/i'm hungry. i swim for 20-30 minutes and do aqua aerobics. that burns more calories than the exercise i do on other days. so i need to eat more. yesterday i had only three crumpets for lunch. i was bound to be hungry. so, from now on - bigger lunch on fridays.
2/boredom. mark does his band stuff on fridays. i need to plan more activities for friday nights.
there! sorted!
it was a gym day today. so i went and discovered that we have a few new treadmills! how exciting! they have touch sensor buttons and i'm dead happy about that because the old ones have buttons you have to press really hard and they really hurt your fingers.
i've blogged earlier that i wear earth energetic trainers to the gym and that they have negative heel technology which causes that you walk on 7.5% incline all the time. and i also whinged that this is most likely the reason why i get so knackered on the treadmill. so today, i decided to wear different trainers. and yes, it was totally the shoes! running was much easier today. i did 3 min walk 2 min run for 30 minutes but i think i could have done 2.5 min walk 2.5 min run. so i'm going to do that on monday. it felt a bit strange at first to run without an incline, it actually felt as if i was running downhill! (which i wasn't) i know i will be burning less calories this way but i think there's a less chance of straining muscles and bigger chance of achieving my tiny little running goals (the first one is to jog for 5 minutes).
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