a perfect week

today i've been thinking about a perfect week. i would like to test a perfect prototype and see what results it brings. but what is a perfect week? i've come up with these rules:

1/follow the weightwatchers core plan religiously
2/drink 2 litres of water a day
3/take chinese 'slimming' pills
4/drink chinese tea after each meal
5/do some kind of exercise for at least half an hour every day

five simple things to do each day, that doesn't seem like a lot, does it? i think i'm going to try it out next week - all the boxes in our room should be cleared by then and i'll have my yoga space.

i think if the test goes well, i'm more likely to do all these things all the time. if you come up with any other rules, let me know!

i've got the pen!

well, not literally. i haven't got it yet but i've ordered it which means i should have it soon. the fact that i was allowed to order the pen means that i was good for a week. and i'm going to continue being good.

it was my weigh in day today and i lost 0.1 kg (i now weigh 65.0 kg). i know this is not a lot and it is slightly disappointing because when i had a peak on the scales during the week, i weighed less. but, because i have the fantastic fat/water/muscle/bones/everything tanita scale, i know my body fat percentage has gone down by a whole percent! that is fantastic and i'm very happy with that. i did eat my activity points last week, perhaps that's why the scales haven't gone down. this week, i'll try to stick with the weekly points allowance (although i will allow myself to use a few bonus points if i desperately need them).

having mentioned exercise, i should reveal that i now have space to do yoga or some other exercise in my room! this is fantastic! at the moment it's still slighty complicated because there are a few boxes left to unpack but as soon as that's done, i can do my daily exercise. i also have an 'exercise drawer' under the bed where dumbells, a pilates ring, magic balls (they're two smooth quite heavy balls i bought ages ago and i have a little book that goes with them and shows exercises) live. i'm going to do something every day. and go to the gym twice a week maybe. that will be fantastic!

also, paulene's 12-week challenge starts this week. i have set my goal to 59.9 kg. i think 5.1 kg in twelve weeks is doable and it will put me in the 50's field again. i will work hard to get there, i promise! i'm just looking through a calendar and the twelve weeks will take us to easter. now, i know i wanted to be 55 kilos by easter (and i'm sure i would have got there had i not fucked up at christmas!). so it's time to change the main goal. i think i'll change it to 'to be 55 kg by my 25th birthday - july 19th 2007'. that actually sounds really good! 25 years old and skinny! yes yes, that's definitely it!

fruit salad

i'm liking this core thing. i eat pretty much three times a day and if i'm hungry i have a little snack inbetween meals. i have rediscovered fruit salads. instead of just peeling the fruit and eating it, i make a nice meal out of it. my favourite salad is cut up banana, orange and grapes. it is so tasty, i love it! of course i crave bad things too but because i have the weekly points allowance, i can have some bad stuff too. if i want salty, i have tesco pretzels, they're really nice and only 1.5 points per bag! if i want sweet, i have some chocolate or ice cream. it's going well. i think i'll have a pen at the end of the week. yay! i can't wait :)

paulene's 12 week challenge is starting next week. i'm so looking forward to it, her challenges are very motivating. i'll have to set up a goal i'd like to reach by the end of the twelve week period. this time, i'll be really realistic, i'll set a goal that i can really reach. it would be really nice to reach a goal for a change.

we're still decorating but the wallpapering is done now and it looks fabulous! mark's done a great job. the room looks much bigger. now we need to do the floor and then we can start putting stuff back in. i'm hoping there might be space for me to do yoga, that would be really good! i would have no excuse then!

doing well

it's the third core plan day and i'm doing really good. yesterday, i had cereal for breakfast, scrambled eggs with mushrooms for lunch and a fruit salad for tea. i also had a tiny little chocolate after lunch, but of course, i'm pointing that. i earnt seven activity points yesterday - three for walking around the trafford centre, four for dancing. you see, my 'intermediate' tango course started yesterday. i was the only person there. they had lots of beginners, but only i turned up for the intermediate class. so i had a private lesson. it was fun, but i felt really bad for the teacher, he had to work so hard. i learnt a lot of really fancy stuff. it was a very good lesson, i had fun.

we're still decorating. i think we're going to start wallpapering today. it will be so exciting! i keep picturing the new room and it looks really fabulous! i have a mission today - to put everything in the room in a box (there are only a few things left) and get it out. should be fun! maybe i could count it as exercise? ;)

ww core plan

i had quite a bad day yesterday. first, i weighed in and only lost 0.3 kg (i now weigh 65.1 kg). i had used most of my points (on cake and hot chocolate) by noon and i was really hungry in the evening. we were watching telly and all i wanted was a pizza. i knew i couldn't have one (because i want the nice and shiny cross atx in pure chrome) and that made it worse. i got into that state of mind where 'i can never ever have a pizza again' and whatever mark said was not good enough. eventually, he gave up and bent the rules for me a bit. he said if i eat only 15 points a day for the next five days, i'll still get the pen. i agreed to that and had the pizza. it was nice but not that nice.

later that night, i was looking at weightwatchers message boards and han mentioned the core plan. i thought it would be a good idea to give it a go. it feels like starting something new and that's exactly what i need. i also changed my weigh in day to monday since that's when i've started the plan. i'm not going to weigh myself this week because it would be a bit silly to weigh myself on sunday and then on the following monday. i'm really hoping the plan will work.

in other news, we're decorating. we managed to put majority of our stuff in boxes yesterday. you wouldn't believe just how much shit we own! seriously. i managed to cut myself on a calendar, just thinking about it makes me cringe. papercuts are the worst! mark said he thought i stepped on a syringe, i shrieked so loud. i'm hoping we'll get all the furniture out today and hopefully strip one wall. hopefully, by the end of the week, we'll have a nice new room!

two down, five to go

i'm being good. for whole two days now, i pointed and i didn't go over. i had proper food but i had chocolate and pretzels too. all within the allowance, of course. the first day was quite hard, i had used up my points allowance by ten pm and we were watching tv and i so wanted something (bad) to munch on. but i didn't. and i'm proud. that pen is so going to be mine and i'm going to get thin too!

in the food news, i have discovered warburtons milk roll. it's only 0.5 point per slice (the slices are quite thin but make great toast or sandwich anyway) and it actually tastes like bread (unlike the papery weightwatchers bread).

yesterday, i used most of my reward money. i bought jasper fforde proofs on abebooks.com. they're all american so they're not worth as much as the uk proofs but i don't really care. i just wanted to get proofs. and hopefully i'll have them signed in the summer. how exciting!

motivation?

it seems like the mystery has been solved. i have to be good for a whole week. under being good understand stay within my points allowance.

i got a pen for christmas. as you all know, i am a little stationery freak. the pen was the cross atx in basalt and i had to specially order fine nib in. i don't like broad writing pens. i love my cross, it's very smooth and it doesn't miss out bits, the ink flows like a river. i love it so much i have finally decided to buy another one to carry around with me at all times. at first, i fought the idea of carrying such an expensive pen in my bag. 'what if i lose it?' i thought, and bought a different, cheaper pen that looked ok but came only with a medium nib and the converter wasn't supplied. and the worst thing was, the ink from the cartridges i bought for it (paperchase) show on the other side of the paper. unacceptable!
i found a website that sells cross atx in pure chrome for £39. that's not a bad price and they offer free postage. they even have the pen with extra fine nib! i want to get it and i want to get it now!
so what do i do? mark came home from work, i showed the pen to him and asked if i could get it. he said i could, but... there's always a but. this time, the but is staying good for a whole week. starting today. well, let me tell you, i'm so glad i've only had 5 points today!

so this is the start of me being good. a pen. the pen!

detox?

it was my 'detox' day today. i had an apple for breakfast and dried fruit and nuts for lunch. at five o'clock, i was ready to drink dr gillian's 24 hour detox sachet. i had an open mind, i promise. first, i found out what's 7 ounces in metric since for some reason, that was the info given on the package. i dilluted it in water. it smelled quite nice. then i licked the spoon. i have never ever ever ever tasted something as bitter as this. after five minutes of 'no i can't drink this' - 'yes you can, c'mon, drink it', i gulped. i managed to drink three quarters of it and that was it. i couldn't drink any more. it was the most disgusting thing ever. afterwards, i felt sick. i had toast and some weightwatchers tortellini and i was ok. but i have to say, it's half nine in the evening and i haven't had any chocolate or crisps yet.

my head hurts my lovelies so i won't write any more. i'll be back again tomorrow.

bah!

this is ridiculous. i can't get on the wagon. i weighed in at 65.4 kg yesterday which means that i've lost half a kilo since i came back to england but i'm still eating for six people. that just shows how much i ate when i was in slovakia. i don't understand what's happening to me. i'm good, then mark comes home and i want chocolate and i want crisps and then i want chocolate again. and i have it. i always tell myself i'm going to start fresh the next day and i do that but i fuck up again in the evening. perhaps it would be a good idea to get myself out of the house in the evening, maybe go for a walk in the trafford centre but i'm watching sex and the city dvd's and i'm on season five and i want to finish them sometime soon. it's annoying and the worst is that the most annoying bit is me.

on the 'other stuff' front, mark and i have finally decided to decorate our room. we've bought laminate flooring in 'rustic oak' - very pretty - and i'm considering painting one wall red and all the others a nice light cream colour. i've always wanted a red wall and a red wall i shall get! the worst part will be taking all the stuff out of the room, the actual decorating should be fine since mark is skilled in this field. ain't i a lucky girl?

i need need need to compose myself. any tips?

hairless

i did it! i had my underams waxed! now, the way i'm talking about it would make you believe that i think it's a life changing experience. but i don't. really. but, i am totally looking forward to not having to shave all the time. it hurt a little bit but it was very quick and it was over very soon. i'm going to start having brazilian done in about june time (malta in september) and i was really scared it would be painful but after this underarm experience i don't worry so much.

i have to confess that i've eaten chocolate today. but all the other food i've eaten today was good! i promise!

i went shopping in the evening and bought a notebook for my open university course and a book log. when i came home, i started on my course! i'm so excited!

well...

today was supposed to be the first day of point counting. it went all very well and then i got really bad chocolate craving in the evening and had quite a few truffles. considering how much crap and the sheer amount of food i've been eating in the past three weeks, i'm assuming that the transition from shit to points won't be easy. so i think i'm going to do the best i can until sunday and then on sunday i'll drop all the excuses and follow the plan properly. perhaps i should go cold turkey but i'm finding it a bit hard at the moment.

i ordered a fountain pen today only to get an email saying they don't stock it anymore. i absolutely hate when people do that. why do they have it on the website and why does it let you order it when they don't have it? there's nothing easier than taking stuff off a website. i'm just annoyed!

i'm having my underarms waxed tomorrow so i'm preparing myself for the pain already. should i have some painkiller before i go? i think it will be much better to be hairless for weeks rather than having to shave every other day. much better.

hopefully i'll do better tomorrow. wish me luck :)

a nice day

i got up nice and early today, washed my hair and went to the trafford centre to meet nicola. we had lunch together, i chose tampopo and had glass noodles with vegetables and some veggie dumplings too. it was nice, but it wasn't fantastic. then we went to the cinema and saw 'employee of the month' which was rather shit. i ate a lot of popcorn. we had pizza hut pizza for tea and then i went to debenhams spa for my facial. a lovely girl was doing it and the facial was absolutely fantastic. i had my eyebrows done as well. one of my new year's resolutions is to take better care of myself. i'm going to have a facial every month and i'll feel fantastic!

i was advised to eat a light diet after my facial so i've decided to start counting points from tomorrow. i was going to do it from sunday as it's my weigh in day but i think it will be best if i start tomorrow. i will still keep sunday as my weigh in day though and i'll update the stats then.

losing weight, here i come!

i'm back

indeed, i am back. it's been three weeks of eating shit and, eating a lot of shit, and no exercise. my plans on exercising every day on the exercise bike fell flat on their arse when i found out my bike wasn't in the house we were staying in. there was nothing to do. there was nothing on telly and the house is in the middle of nowhere so i couldn't even go and shop. the last week of the holiday was better as we went to bratislava and went shopping every day so walked a lot. but, all in all, i've put on about six kilos. i know it's disgusting, but there's not much i can do about it now apart from start fresh as soon as i can. bah!