it's friday already

it's weird, i feel as if i've only started the diet. but it's been five days already. i've not had any bread, pasta, rice or even potatoes. i didn't eat anything after eight o'clock for five days. i've not had a single treat. no chocolate, no biscuits, no crisps. how weird, considering 6 days ago i just couldn't do it. i couldn't stay away from shit, i couldn't eat less. and then, i decided i could do it. it just shows that you can always do it. only sometimes you don't know you can.

i'm confindent now more than ever that i will lose the bloody weight now. i'm eating well and i'm hoping to start training with the personal trainer soon. that should kick my ass into wanting to exercise on other days too. i went to the gym to get classes timetable. i'm thinking about taking it with me to my first session with the pt, highlight the classes i like and see what she suggests i do.

we went to the trafford centre today and as we went past thorntons i suddenly wanted chocolate (i have a very suggestible mind). i wouldn't be able to go to thorntons and buy stuff there because they don't mark their products as vegetarian. i told mark i wanted chocolate. he said 'have a yogurt or something', i thought about it and said 'yes, i think i will'. this is a new thing. before, i would have stomped my feet and insisted that 'i'm allowed to have a treat'. today, i considered what would be better - have chocolate or have yogurt (the yogurt would be muller corner with chocolate digestives, so a sweet one), thought if i desperately needed chocolate and decided yogurt was the better option. we came home and i had a yogurt. no drama.

i'm feeling positive today (if you haven't figured it out yet), hopefully i will do tomorrow too.