do as you say
yesterday's eating was spot on. until we went to the cinema. i ate a 'medium' bag of popcorn and was slurping mark's pepsi max all the time. i thought, 'when am i going to come to the cinema again?' and used it as an excuse.
today, while watching voyager, an advert for pizza hut was shown on tv. instantly, i wanted a pizza. i thought, 'it's sunday today, tomorrow's monday - a fresh start. and i had popcorn yesterday anyway.' and used it as an excuse.
the moral of the story is, i'm good with excuses. i'm very good at talking myself into doing something i said i wouldn't do and talking myself out of doing something i said i would do. like, eat shit and go to the gym respectively.
but as i said, tomorrow's monday. a fresh start. tomorrow is the first day of paulene's 12 week challenge. a sign? tomorrow, my spanish course starts. another sign?
yes yes, i've decided these are all signs and i need to focus and start losing the goddamn weight. i'm not going to talk about failure because failure simply isn't an option. i've put on a lot of weight in the past couple of weeks. what have i worked so hard for? it will be no failing this time.
i've ordered my classic quickutz alphabet today which should come sometime next week so i can finally scrapbook. i'm going to make a layout with my weight loss plan. i can look at it when i lose my motivation and remind myself of what i've promised myself.
i really need to start taking care of myself. it's not just food. it's pretty much everything. my hair, my skin, the way i look, clothes, make up, the place i live in, my activities, the lot. i don't do anything to make myself look nice or enjoy myself. last time i wore make up was in october. that's a long time ago. i'm not saying i'm going to put on full make up and have perfect hair and fill every minute of my life with enjoyable activities but i'm certainly going to try to start doing something.
i've made an appointment with chris, my hairdresser who's fabulous. he's on holiday next week so i'm going to see him on august, 17th. i'm not sure what i want to have done, but i know he will come up with something. that's a start. from tomorrow, i will religiously use my estee lauder skincare range and drybrush my skin. i will try to follow every rule i blogged earlier. i'll be damned if i let myself go now, after having only ten kilos to go.
55 kilos, here i come!
today, while watching voyager, an advert for pizza hut was shown on tv. instantly, i wanted a pizza. i thought, 'it's sunday today, tomorrow's monday - a fresh start. and i had popcorn yesterday anyway.' and used it as an excuse.
the moral of the story is, i'm good with excuses. i'm very good at talking myself into doing something i said i wouldn't do and talking myself out of doing something i said i would do. like, eat shit and go to the gym respectively.
but as i said, tomorrow's monday. a fresh start. tomorrow is the first day of paulene's 12 week challenge. a sign? tomorrow, my spanish course starts. another sign?
yes yes, i've decided these are all signs and i need to focus and start losing the goddamn weight. i'm not going to talk about failure because failure simply isn't an option. i've put on a lot of weight in the past couple of weeks. what have i worked so hard for? it will be no failing this time.
i've ordered my classic quickutz alphabet today which should come sometime next week so i can finally scrapbook. i'm going to make a layout with my weight loss plan. i can look at it when i lose my motivation and remind myself of what i've promised myself.
i really need to start taking care of myself. it's not just food. it's pretty much everything. my hair, my skin, the way i look, clothes, make up, the place i live in, my activities, the lot. i don't do anything to make myself look nice or enjoy myself. last time i wore make up was in october. that's a long time ago. i'm not saying i'm going to put on full make up and have perfect hair and fill every minute of my life with enjoyable activities but i'm certainly going to try to start doing something.
i've made an appointment with chris, my hairdresser who's fabulous. he's on holiday next week so i'm going to see him on august, 17th. i'm not sure what i want to have done, but i know he will come up with something. that's a start. from tomorrow, i will religiously use my estee lauder skincare range and drybrush my skin. i will try to follow every rule i blogged earlier. i'll be damned if i let myself go now, after having only ten kilos to go.
55 kilos, here i come!
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