it's working!

i've lost a kilo! a full kilo! i now weight 64 kilos and i feel positive. i wish i'd lose a kilo every week, that would be wicked, wouldn't it? i'd be thin in two months and a week! i'd like that. i'm going to slovakia in seven weeks. if i could lose seven kilos... probably not gonna happen but i can dream!
to be realistic, if i lost half a kilo every week, i'd be almost in the fifties by the time i go and that would be good too. not as good but good still.

there are a few challenges, eating wise, at the moment. i've started taking the pill which usually makes me so hungry i'd eat a horse (i wouldn't, but you know what i mean) but so far this has not happened. i'm seeing my shrink this week and i think he's going to change my meds. new meds almost always want to make me eat before i get used to them so we'll see. but, i've said this before, i'm not going to let medicine dictate my weight, especially because that's why i got fat in the first place. so i'll take each day as it comes and monitor my hunger levels and keep tracking.

i can't wait to go down a jeans size. i know i have to wait for a while, but it will be size 10!

i'm a binger

i lost it at the weekend and binged. on anything and everything. as a result, i gained. i weighed in at 65 kg on monday and i was pissed off with myself. i was doing so well! anyway, i can either beat myself up about it and stuff my face with cookies for comfort while i'm bitching at myself or i can start fresh. guess which one i'm doing? judging by the tin next to my bed... just kidding! ;)
i've started fresh and had a very good day yesterday. i made watercress soup - all organic (apart from the oil and stock cube) and it was lovely. i also had a chocolate bar, but it was within the points and i even managed to bank two points. i didn't do any exercise though but that's going to be rectified today when i'm going to dance tango for two hours. i'm also planning to go to the gym on wednesday night, just for an hour or so to do cardio. that is yet to be seen whether i'll actually go but my intentions are good. seriously.

weightwatchers have this spring challenge on their website. you are supposed to set yourself goals the first week. these are mine:

my daily success behaviour this week will be: stay within points allowance
my goal for this week is: lose 0.5 kg
my goal for this month is: to have four losses of/grater than 0.5 kg

i will do my best this week and see what it brings me.

is everyone else obsessed with jeff buckley or is it just me?

i lost!

i lost 0.4 kg last week and now weigh 64.7 kg. it's not great, but it's in the right direction and i'm hoping to do better this week. i was really good last week, staying within points and walking a lot.

we went to london on monday because mark played a gig, supporting inme. i made sandwiches and took diet crisps with me but after the gig i was so hungry and the car keys were in mark's guitar case and we couldn't really get to that for a while so i bought egg and cress sandwiches (no mayo). ate that. were nice. just as well because we couldn't find the sandwiches i made in the morning or the crsps. we stopped at a petrol station on the way home and i bought
1/mini jaffa cakes
2/dipped flake
3/mccoy's salt and vinegar crisps
and ate quite a lot of it. the next day i was so dead i desperately needed carbs so that's what i ate, but i stayed pretty much within points although i didn't count. i started being really good yesterday and i'm going to be good from now on. it's really bizarre how much a little trip threw me. lack of sleep, standing around a lot. weird.

i'm going to do some more walking tonight and do some shopping at the same time.